Author: Kenna Kendrick

Spring 1305, Mhairi’s House of Pleasure

Isle of Harris, Scottish Western Isles

“Dinnae look now, Emily, but I reckon that’s the brawest feller I’ve ever laid eyes on in me life just come in!” whispered Raven MacDonald, neé MacNeil, to her fellow maid, nudging her in the ribs. Emily looked up at once and took in the tall, broad figure with short, pale-gold hair standing in the doorway.

“Och, aye, he’s dreamy,” she breathed, her mouth falling open as she stared at the newcomer.

“I told ye nae tae look! And stop starin’ at him like that,” Raven hissed, stifling a giggle with one hand while absently wiping at the table top with a damp cloth with the other.

“Why should I? Ye’re starin’,” Emily pointed out, not taking her eyes off the blond-haired man as he strode in on long, muscular, leather-clad legs and shut the door behind him.

Raven could not deny it. Since the man had come in, she had been transfixed by his powerful physique and rough, masculine beauty. “Look at his hair. ’Tis so lovely and thick and fair, like spun gold. And look at his muscles and his scars,” she whispered admiringly as strange chills such as she had never felt before ran up and down her spine. “He’s gorgeous. He looks like a fearsome warrior.”

“Aye, he is.”

Raven gasped and tore her eyes from the blond godlike man long enough to glance at her friend. “Ye ken who he is?”

“Aye, of course I dae! Ye must be the only person on Harris who daesnae recognize him,” Emily replied.

Raven frowned a little at that. She had very good reasons for never straying too far from the house, and she seldom ventured into the nearby village. It was safer that way. But she said nothing.

Emily continued. “But this is the first time I’ve seen him come in here.”

“Who is he then?” Raven asked, unable to stop looking at the man as she pretended to mop the table. He had light-colored eyes, which flickered about the room, taking in the bevy of painted courtesans and their male clientele already occupying the luxuriously furnished salon.

“Why, ’tis Arne MacLeod, Laird Haldor’s younger braither,” Emily told her, getting on with her job of loading used crockery onto a tray.

The laird’s braither? Raven, feeling unaccountably excited by his presence, watched covertly while Madam Morag glided over to greet MacLeod, an ingratiating smile plastered on her painted old face. Morag was tall for a woman, but the blond warrior dwarfed her. He was huge!

The two chatted in low voices for a few minutes, clearly discussing business. Straining her ears, Raven could hear the low, deep rumble of his voice. The sound made goosebumps rise all over her skin.

“Wait until ye get close enough tae see his eyes. All the girls would give their right arms tae get him intae bed. Wish ye were one of them, d’ye?” Emily smiled teasingly at Raven as she hurried off back to the kitchen with her tray.

Raven moved on to the next table, but her attention was on MacLeod and the courtesans who were eyeing him up with frank appreciation, giggling, thrusting out their breasts, practically licking their lips. Raven was well aware that in comparison to their usual clientele he was a choice morsel. She suspected that if not for Morag’s stern presence, the girls would have fought each other to be the one to take him to bed, without charging a penny. And the way Raven felt, for the first time in her life, just looking at him, strange tingles racing all over her body, she thought she understood why.

Before she had come to work at Mhairi’s, she had never really understood how a woman could want a man so much. She was not a virgin, but she had lain with only one man in her life, a cold, soulless man who repulsed her in every way.

So, to catch herself imagining what this MacLeod would look like without his clothes on shocked her to her core. And now, seeing the way each of the girls was trying to tempt him into choosing to lay with them, she felt a flash of jealousy. Why, that’s absurd! I’ve only just laid eyes on him. How can I be jealous?

“Maeve,” came a familiar voice, jolting her from her reverie.

“Aye,” Raven replied, responding to the false name she had adopted to shield her from her past. She smiled up at Morag, while noticing from the corner of her eye that MacLeod was now seated at a cozy corner table near the roaring hearth, his long legs stretched out, his boots resting on the fender.

Morag’s pinched, painted lips smiled back at her with a genuine warmth that was rare for her. “I see ye lookin’ at that feller that’s just come in. That’s new,” she said slyly. “And I dinnae blame ye. He’s a fine specimen, eh? Why, if I was thirty years younger…” Her husky voice trailed off, and her faded eyes took on a faraway look for a moment. Then she snapped back into her professional self.

“He’s the laird’s braither, Arne MacLeod is his name.”

“Aye, Emily said,” Raven put in, trying not to keep looking at him.

“He’s lookin’ fer a lass tae spend the night with him, but he wants tae take his time choosin’ which one. I’m tae tell the girls tae let him be fer a while, so he can have a look at what’s on offer at his leisure. But he has plenty of money tae spend, so we must keep him sweet. I want ye tae serve him, and make sure he gets everything he wants,” the madam ordered under her breath.

A fresh wave of excitement washed over Raven. “Aye, I will,” she found herself saying with an unfamiliar eagerness.

“Good lass.” Morag patted her shoulder and went off to speak to her girls. Raven heard soft expressions of disappointment from several of them as, with trembling fingers, she tucked her cleaning cloth in her apron pocket. She brushed down her skirts and straightened her cap, wondering why on earth she was bothering. I’m a maid, fer goodness sake, nae a courtesan out tae flirt with a man.

But for some odd reason, it suddenly felt important to do what little she could to present herself well. She straightened up, took a deep breath, summoned all her composure, and approached MacLeod’s table.

He cooly watched her coming, and by the time she reached the table, Raven felt her cheeks burning with embarrassment. Close up, he was even more dazzling to look at. He had the fine, chiseled features of a classical statue from ancient times, with brown stubble that glinted with gold covering his squarish chin and thick golden-brown slashes for brows. But the most startling thing about him were his eyes.

Emily had been right about them, for Raven had never seen such beautiful eyes on a man, and she found herself staring helplessly into them, transfixed. They were a light, silvery-blue, like a blue wintry sky shining on crystals of ice. Their unwavering gaze seemed to pierce her to her soul.

When he smiled at her, revealing even, white teeth, her mouth went dry, and her heart began to pound, thump, thump, thump, beneath her bodice.

“Hello, lassie,” he said, his lovely deep voice pouring over her like warm honey.

Pull yersel’ together, ye silly goose, she silently chided herself, and get on with yer job. Somehow, she got control of herself enough to drop a small curtsey. “Good evenin’ tae ye, Sir. May I bring ye somethin’ tae drink, or perhaps ye’re hungry?” she asked, returning his smile.

He leaned back in his chair, not taking his eyes from her face, and folded his arms. “I’m nae sure. What d’ye recommend?”

“Well, if ye’re nae decided yet, then ye could start off with a tankard of ale or some wine or whisky if ye prefer, while ye make up yer mind.”

“Good idea. What’s the ale like here? If ’tis like gnats’ piss, I’ll give it a miss and have some wine instead.”

Raven could not stop the laugh that slipped form her lips. She glanced around to check if Morag was listening before telling him in a low voice, “Well, I shouldnae say this, but ye’re probably best off skippin’ the ale and havin’ the wine.”

“And what’s the wine like? Horse piss?” he asked, cocking an eyebrow.

This time, Raven snorted and chuckled. “’Tis nae too bad. I’ve tasted worse. And the whisky is quite good.”

“I’ll go fer the wine then and maybe move on tae the whisky later.”

“Very well, Sir. I’ll just go and fetch that fer ye.” She went to the sideboard on the other side of the room. It was loaded with glasses, goblets, jugs, and drink and food of all kinds. She selected a flask of the finest wine they had and decanted it into a pewter jug.

This she carried back to him, along with a large goblet, and placed them on the table. “Would ye like me tae pour that fer ye, Sir?” she asked.

“Aye, if ye dinnae mind,” he told her with a nod, his icy eyes dancing with something she could not name but which made her feel hot all over.

“Say when,” she told him, lifting the jug and starting to pour the wine for him. She began to feel a little worried when it almost reached the brim before he said, “When.”

Then he lifted the goblet to his firm, sculpted lips and, his eyes locked with hers, took a long sip of the ruby liquid. As he did so, Raven noticed his hands, large, tan, capable-looking, covered with fine golden hairs, and a network of scars. A warrior’s hands. Yet he held the goblet delicately, with refinement.

The sight of his thick fingers delicately clamped around the stem of the goblet was oddly exciting, and she could not stop herself from wondering what it would be like to feel them upon her skin. She suspected they would feel far different from the cold ones she had known before.

He nodded his blond head and smiled approvingly. “Aye, that’s nae bad at all. Thank ye fer yer recommendation,” he said, placing the goblet back down. “Will ye come and join me fer a drink?”

Raven was startled by the unexpected invitation. “Och, nay,” she said, hiding how flustered she was behind a small laugh. “Ye need tae speak tae Morag. She’ll get one of the other lassies tae come and have a drink with ye if ye want some company.”

“But I’m happy with the present company,” he said, his strange eyes gleaming in the amber lamplight. She stared at him, at a loss as to what to say for a few moments, her whole body tingling. “What’s yer name?” he asked suddenly.

“Maeve. Maeve Carter.”

“Maeve. That’s an awful pretty name.”

Raven’s cheeks flamed. “Thank ye, Sir.”

“Me name’s Arne, Arne MacLeod. How d’ye dae, Maeve?” He held out his enormous hand to her. She looked at it in disbelief for a moment, but then she reached out and took it.

“Very well. And yersel’?” she asked as his large, warm palm enclosed her hand. A shock like lightening rushed up Raven’s arm at his touch. He shook her hand briefly and let it go, a trace of surprise on his face. She wondered if he had felt the strange sensation as well.

“Right as rain, lass, right as rain,” he replied, giving her an indecipherable look. Raven suddenly became acutely aware of a peculiar tension hanging in the air between them. She had never experienced anything like it until then.

“Tell me, Maeve, what can a hungry man get tae eat around here?”

She struggled to compose herself. “That depends on what ye fancy,” she heard herself say, only realizing after she had said it how coquettish it must have sounded. She blushed again. “I mean, how hungry ye are. We have bread and cheese and cured meats, or ye can have somethin’ hot.”

His golden-brown eyebrows shot up, and he grinned. “Somethin’ hot, eh? And what might that be?”

Ye’ve done it again! Keep a check on yer tongue with this one. “Braised beef with carrots, tatties and neeps, or there’s some roasted lamb, I believe,” she explained, wondering how one man could have such an effect on her.

“Have ye had yer supper?” he asked.

“Erm, nae. I’ll eat when me shift’s over in an hour,” she replied. Why is he even askin’?

“If I wait an hour, will ye come and join me fer dinner then?”

The request filled her with fresh consternation. Daes he nae understand the way things are done around here?

Remembering Morag’s orders to give him whatever he wanted, she glanced around for the madam’s help. Did “whatever he wants” include wining and dining the help? But Morag was otherwise engaged. So Raven looked back at him, smiled, and shook her head. “’Tis kind of ye tae ask, but ye must speak tae Morag about it,” she told him again.

“Ach, all right. Let’s nae beat about the bush. How much tae buy yer company fer the whole night?”

Raven was so shocked, before she knew what she was doing, she had raised her hand and given him a hard slap around the face. The sound echoed about the room. She regretted it the instant it happened, and she felt eyes in the room upon her. Ach, Morag will give me the boot after this!

“Ow! What was that fer?” Arne asked, rubbing the red hand mark she had left behind on his cheek.

“I’m nae fer sale. I’m nae a courtesan. I keep tellin’ ye, if ye wat a lass fer the night ye must speak tae Morag,” she told him in no uncertain terms. Though her heart was sinking, she felt she had nothing to lose now, since Morag would be furious with her for hitting a customer, and the laird’s brother of all people.

“Is everythin’ all right, Sir?” Of course, it was Morag. Raven steeled herself for the inevitable dismissal, afraid of what she would do if she had to leave the protection working at Mhairi’s offered her. Ye should learn tae keep yer temper!

“Aye, fine. I insulted the lady without meanin’ tae, and she put me right. It was a misunderstandin’, that’s all,” Arne told the madam straight out. Raven stared at him in surprise, grateful for his admission.

“Well, if ye’re happy about it, then I suppose that’s all right,” Morag replied. She glanced at Raven. “’Tis best tae refrain from slappin’ the customers in future, Maeve. ’Tis nae good fer business.”

“Sorry, Morag. I’ll nae dae it again,” she promised, hopeful of keeping her job.

“Apologize tae the customer, nae tae me,” the madam said.

“Sorry, Sir,” Raven muttered, afraid to meet Arne’s eyes.

“Can I have a word with ye in private, Morag?” he asked.

Morag nodded. “Raven, go and get some more wine fer Lucy and her customer, will ye?” Raven did as she as told, and while she was at the sideboard, she saw the pair deep in conversation, each glancing her way now and then. She delivered the wine to Lucy and her man and was about to start clearing another table when Morag beckoned her back to Arne’s.

“Ye can take the rest of the evenin’ off. Arne here seems tae like yer company, so I want ye tae keep him entertained,” the madam said quietly in her ear.

“What? What d’ye mean keep him entertained? I’m nae sleepin’ with him,” Raven whispered back urgently.

“He understands ye’re nae fer sale. He’s kens ye’re but a maid. He says he’s happy tae just talk and have dinner.”

Raven looked at her questioningly. Morag just shrugged. “He’s the customer, and the customer is always right, especially when he’s paid fer the whole of the night,” she said, giving Raven a wink as she moved off.

All this time, she was aware of Arne watching them. She wondered what his game was. But then he smiled that dazzling smile of his, and his silver-blue eyes danced with good humor as he got up and pulled out a chair for her.

“Will ye take a seat, Maeve?”

Unable to resist, after a brief moment of hesitation, she sat down. “Thank ye,” she said as he pushed in her chair and resumed his seat. He leaned on his elbows and smiled across at her.

“What’s goin’ on?” she asked.

“What d’ye mean?” He looked genuinely puzzled.

“Ye ken what I mean. Customers in whorehouses dinnae usually pay fer the night just tae talk tae the maid. It seems very odd.”

“Is that right? Well, ye clearly have more experience of these things that I dae. The last time I went tae a house of pleasure was on me fifteenth birthday when me big braither dragged me there as a present.”

“So why are ye here now then?” she asked, puzzled and intrigued.

He shrugged. “I suppose I got a wee bit lonely. I felt like some company,” he explained.

“I cannae imagine a man like ye has tae buy a woman fer the night.”

His eyes widened, full of mirth. “A man like me? Now, what d’ye mean by that?”

Raven’s cheeks flared hotly. She wished she had not said it, so she decided to change the subject. “Since I’m here fer the evenin’, ye’d better tell me what ye’d like tae talk about?”

“How about Maeve Carter?”

Raven could not help but warm to him. He was not only beautiful to look at but seemingly charming and good-natured as well. She decided she might as well enjoy the evening. It was unlikely that it would be repeated. She gave herself up to the pleasure of his company. “That’s a very boring subject, and it’ll nae take up more than a minute or two.”

“We’ll see about that. How old are ye, Maeve?” he asked her as he poured her some wine.

“Twenty-one.”

“D’ye come from around here?”

“Nay, from down south, near Tarbert. Me faither has a farm there,” she lied with practiced ease.

“A farm lass, eh? How did ye come tae be here on Harris, workin’ at house of pleasure as a maid?”

“I like tae travel, and I like workin’ here. The pay’s good, I get meals and board, and the people are a sort of family.”

“And now, the most important question of all. D’ye ye ken how tae play chess?”

The question was so unexpected, Raven burst out laughing. She relaxed, suddenly feeling completely at ease in his company. He looked fearsome and intimidating, but she could tell his nature was warm and funny.

“Aye, I play. Why d’ye want tae ken?”

“Because I want tae play, of course. Why else?”

“Ye want tae play chess, with me?”

“Somethin’ wrong with that?” he asked, his eyes dancing.

“I suppose nae. But I hope ye’re nae a sore loser. I’m very good. Me braithers taught me.”

“Well, well, ye sound very confident. Let’s have a game or two then and see how good ye are.”

She began laughing. “All right. I’ll go and fetch the board.” She got up and went over to one of the cupboards below the sideboard. There were several chess sets, packs of cards, and other gaming boards stowed there. She took a chess set and snatched up an extra goblet while she was there. Then she returned to the table and sat down. He began setting out the board.

“How about we make a small wager on the outcome,” he suggested.

“All right,” Raven agreed, seeing no harm in it. “I dinnae have much money though.”

“I wasnae thinkin’ of money,” he replied, lining up the pawns.

“Oh? What then?” she asked curiously.

He finished placing the pieces on the board and looked her square in the eyes and said boldly. “How about if I win, we share a kiss?”

Raven’s whole body tingled. “All right,” she replied, unable to help returning his smile. “One kiss.”

They began to play, and she played as badly as she could without being too obvious about it, for she had decided that this was one game she would be very happy to lose.

Enjoyed this bonus chapter? Dive back into the adventure and continue the journey on your e-reader. Happy reading!

 

Don’t miss your link for the whole book at the end of the preview.*** 

Me darling Arne,I once dared tae dream that ye could be me forever, that our love might defy even fate. But I must face the truth I have tried so hard tae deny: our paths were never meant tae stay intertwined.

This is Thorsten, our son. He was born two months ago, on the 20th of March, while ye were away fighting fer us. I named him after yer braither. He has yer strength, yer eyes. Every time I look at him, I see ye, and me heart breaks anew because of what I must dae.

More than anything, I wanted ye tae come home safely tae meet him, tae hold him, and tae feel the joy of being his faither. I dreamed of us raising him together. Being the family I never had. But dreams are fragile things, easily shattered by the cruel hand of reality. Me past has finally caught up with me, and I have nay choice but to leave.

There are truths about me ye dae nae ken, secrets I’ve kept buried deep. I am nae the woman ye believe me tae be, and fer that, I am deeply sorry. I never meant tae deceive ye, but the person ye love is a lie. And now, the danger that follows me threatens ye and our son. If I stay, I put both of ye at risk, and I cannot bear the thought of any harm coming tae ye or Thorsten.

I ken ye will hate me fer leaving, fer abandoning ye and our child. Ye have every right tae be angry, tae curse me name, and tae never forgive me. But ken that I am doing this because I love ye both more than me own life. I am leaving tae protect ye, tae keep ye safe from the shadows that chase me. I have nay other choice, Arne. If there were another way, I would take it, but there is none.

Please, take care of Thorsten. Love him with all the strength I ken ye have. Raise him with the kindness in yer heart.

And please, dinnae search fer me. It is too dangerous, and ye will never be able tae find me.

Kiss Thorsten fer me, and try tae remember that I love ye both, always.

Forever in me heart,

Maeve

Chapter One

May 1307, Mhairi’s House o’ Pleasure

The village of Muircross, near Castle MacLeod, the Western Scottish Highlands

 

The golden spring evening cast a deceptively warm glow over the grey granite walls of the substantial house which stood on the outskirts of the village. It nestled alone on an incline above a lane lined with towering pines and bushes of thorny, bright yellow gorse.

From the outside it seemed perfectly respectable, with lace curtains at the windows, but looks could be deceptive, and people from miles around knew very well that it was a house of ill repute.

Each night, as the sun went down, men would start arriving, tapping at the door to be let in. They came alone or in groups, drunk or sober, on foot, on horseback, or in carriages that marked the occupants’ wealth and status. All paying customers were welcomed by the painted courtesans who dwelt within Mhairi’s House o’ Pleasure.

At first, there had been nothing remarkable about the group of riders, five men, dusty from the road, who had come earlier that evening, and were currently being entertained in the downstairs rooms. There, the customers and the courtesans consorted, flirted, made free with whisky and wine, gorged themselves on fine foods, danced, and laughed, all under the watchful eye of the madam. Later, they would couple up, to disappear to one of the upstairs rooms.

Raven had thought little of it when the riders entered. She had been working at Mhairi’s for just over a year as a maid, having adopted the name of Maeve, and she was used to the comings and goings of the clientele. She split her duties between cleaning and, at busy times, helping in the kitchen out the back.

She was rushing to and fro between the main room and the kitchen with the orders when the men entered. They were greeted by Morag, the madam, who showed them to a table. Almost immediately Raven heard their leader asking if anyone knew of the whereabouts of a woman they were searching for.

“Her name is Raven MacNeil, but she might be goin’ by another name,” he said gruffly.

The bottom suddenly fell out of Raven’s world. Her mind went blank, and her breath caught in her throat.

The man went on, “She’s in her early twenties, slender, with long black hair, a pale complexion, and light brown eyes.”

Starting to shake, Raven accidentally spilled some of the ale she was carrying on the floor, attracting the attention of those nearby, including Morag and the leader of the riders.

Morag turned away from the man and directed a warning look at Raven. “Ye’d best go and clean that up quickly, Maeve, afore somebody slips up,” she said calmly. The man glanced dismissively at the clumsy maid, who kept her head down as she scurried back to the kitchen. Raven just had time to hear the conversation continue when Morag turned back to the man and said thoughtfully, “Black hair and brown eyes, did ye say?”

“Aye.”

Morag shook her stiff curls. “Nay, we’ve nae girls like that workin’ here, Sir. Shame though, for they’d be worth their weight in gold,” she said with an air of regret. “Nae many girls with black hair up here, so I am sure she would make me a good penny”. Then, with total aplomb, she swept her professional smile over his colleagues and asked in a honeyed voice, “Now, what would ye gentlemen like tae drink?”

By that time, Raven was in the kitchen, her heart pounding, limbs trembling, struggling to draw air into her lungs. Morag appeared a few moments later. She spoke quietly to one of the kitchen maids, who immediately went to clean up the spilled beer in the main room. When she has gone, the madam pushed the kitchen door closed, pulled Raven aside, and whispered urgently, “Ye heard them, lass, they’re lookin’ fer ye.”

“I-k-ken,” Raven whispered back, her voice shaking. “I h-have to leave right away, Morag. ’Tis too dangerous fer us tae stay here now.” Her heart continued thudding loudly in her chest as she stared at the door, painfully aware of the peril that lurked only feet away on the other side.

Morag nodded. “Go fetch the bairn and go up tae yer room. I’ll meet ye there shortly.” With that, she returned to her duties in the main room. Without saying anything to anyone else, Raven slipped out to the hallway and ran quietly up the staircase to her room.

Minutes later, in the small chamber which had been her refuge for the last year and a few months, Raven clutched her sleeping son protectively to her breast with one arm. Her voice thick with tears, she kept up a constant stream of quiet reassurance as she hurried back and forth between the small wardrobe and the large bag which lay open on the bed, hastily placing her few, necessary possessions inside with one hand.

“It’s all going tae be fine, wee Thorsten, me darlin’, just ye wait and see,” she told him through her stifled sobs, pressing kisses to his shock of pitch-black hair that was so like her own. “Ye’ll be better off without me. Ye have a good faither from a good family. He’ll look after ye. I cannae protect ye any longer, but ye’ll be safe with him.”

The hopeful words belied the terrible feeling that her whole world had suddenly been ripped apart. A mixture of fear and trepidation coursed through her as she began stuffing Thorsten’s tiny clothes into another small bag.

“I dinnae want tae leave ye, bonny lad, but ’tis fer the best, ye’ll see. And one day, we’ll be together again. I’ll find a way.”

Through her tears, she silently prayed that would be the case. But deep down, she knew that the vengeful man who had sent the riders to find her would not give up until they did. And if he found out about Thorsten’s existence, he would not allow him to live. The fearful knowledge sat in her belly like a cold, dead weight. It was that, the fear for Thorsten’s life, that was keeping her from completely falling to pieces.

As she finished putting Thorsten’s things into the bag, she glanced over at the chess board on the table in the corner of the room. Just seeing it there and the memories it stirred increased the almost crushing pain in her chest. Outwardly, it was a simple chess board, yet for Raven, it was a symbol of all her hopes and dreams for a happy future, hopes and dreams which were now crumbling around her.

Now, it stood for everything and everyone she was about to lose, and never have again. She felt as though her heart was being torn into pieces.

The noises from the neighboring room grew in volume and intensity, shrieks and groans of two people rutting like beasts. Raven tried to shut it out and held her palms over Thorsten’s tiny shell-like ears, lest the noise wake him from his peaceful slumber. The shrieks increased until the woman screamed as she reached her climax, or pretended to, shortly followed by an exhausted groan from the man.

“Ye’ll nae be sorry tae leave that behind, I’ll wager, lassie,” said Morag, coming quietly into the room and jerking her thumb at the wall. The old madam was wearing a gaudy gown and had a hard, painted face to suit her hard life. But when she smiled at Raven, the kindness of her true nature shone out from beneath the thick layer of powder and rouge.

“I nae sure I willnae miss it, Morag,” Raven replied with shaking voice, ineffectually sniffing back her tears. “At least while I could hear it, I kent we were safe.” She summoned a weak smile despite the terror gripping her, urging her to be gone. “I’m packed and ready tae leave now,” she added, nodding at the bags on the bed.

“Ach, ye dinnae have tae hurry so much, lassie. The girls have promised tae keep the men that are askin’ questions about ye busy fer hours, so ye have plenty of time. Besides, I’ve already told them ye’re nae here, and I’ve given them some information that’ll lead them astray.”

While she spoke, she came over and stroked Raven’s hair then gently kissed Thorsten’s head, looking at him with the doting eyes of a grandmother. “Are ye certain ye need tae dae this? Ye ken we can hide ye both fer as long as ye need, and nay man will ever find ye. Ye’ll be safe,” Morag said coaxingly, clearly hoping Raven would agree to stay.

Raven sobbed as she said thickly, “I want tae stay, Morag, but ’tis too dangerous. I fear fer me son’s life if those men find me, and they’ll never give up. If Thorsten and I stay here, he would never be safe.” She looked at Morag, her eyes blurred by tears, adding, “Besides, ye’ve already done so much fer us, and I dinnae want tae put ye or the girls in danger. Even lyin’ tae those men fer me just this once is puttin’ ye all at terrible risk.”

“Well, ’tis an awful shame,” Morag said, her lined forehead creasing further with obvious disappointment and worry. “We’ll miss ye, lass, and the wee man.”

Raven almost gave way under the weight of emotions coursing through her then. She hugged Thorsten’s small warm body close for comfort as she choked out,

“Ach, Morag, I’m gonnae miss ye, and the lasses as well. Ye’ve looked after us both so well, and I’ll never be able tae repay ye fer yer kindness. But if they’ve tracked me this far, I fear it’ll nae be long before they catch up with me. I have nae choice but tae run if I want tae save me son.”

“Ach, there’s naethin’ fer ye tae repay, hinny. We all wish we could dae more tae help ye.” Morag came closer and circled them with her arms, hugging them both tenderly.

“Ye’ve been a Godsend, Morag. I dinnae ken what I would have done without ye, givin’ me a job here and protectin’ me fer so long.” Raven’s stifled sobs of sorrow and gratitude wet the front of the older woman’s gown as they embraced, probably for the last time. For more than a year, the hard-faced, otherwise ruthless madam had been the closest thing to a mother she’d had, and Raven was loathe to leave her and her safe berth at the house.

When they finally drew apart, Morag held out her arms and said, “Here, let me hold him. This may be the last time I get the chance.”

I hope it isnae the last chance I have tae hold him too.

“I pray it willnae be, Morag, but I fear ye may be right. Ye’ve been as good as a grandmaither tae him while we’ve been here,” Raven said, carefully handing Thorsten over. She struggled to hold back her sorrow and panic as she hurriedly stuffed an extra shawl into the bag, a gift from Morag and the girls. Before she closed the bag, she went to the nightstand and took a letter from the drawer and put it inside.

Morag watched in grim silence as she cradled the sleeping baby. Then she asked, “Are ye sure there’s nay another way, lass? Is wee Thorsten’s faither nae back from the fightin’ yet?”

The question unleashed a fresh bout of sobbing from Raven, who felt her heart was being torn in two. Her voice shook as she answered, “Nay, but I think ’tis fer the best that he’s still away.” She had been working hard to convince herself of it. “If he were home, I dinnae think I could dae what I must. It would just make it more difficult tae leave, and that would put him and the bairn in danger.”

“That’s cruel indeed, lass. Me old heart goes out tae ye,” the madam murmured sadly, gazing down at the baby and stroking his mop of hair. “There’s nay mistakin’ the lad’s maither with that hair. ’Tis truly as black as a raven’s wing. But those bright blue eyes of his are his faither’s. He’s the perfect mixture of ye both.”

The words were like daggers stabbing at Raven’s already aching heart. A vision of Arne arose in her mind. The picture was as vivid as though he were standing next to her, as if she could reach out and touch him. She could see every detail of his powerful warrior’s body, the rough, masculine beauty of his features, his short, almost white-blond hair that she loved to run her fingers through, and his piercing blue gaze that glittered like sapphires in the sunlight whenever he looked at her.

The vision tore at her tortured soul. How can I leave him when I love him so much?

Suddenly, she clutched at her chest, finding it hard to breathe, let alone speak.

“Are ye alright, lassie?” Morag asked anxiously, coming closer and putting a hand on Raven’s shoulder. Raven laid her own over the top of it, taking comfort in the old woman’s reassuring touch. Slowly, she caught her breath.

“Aye, as alright as I can be,” she replied, unable to stop the trembling of her limbs but mentally steeling herself. “I have tae be strong, tae be able tae dae what I have tae dae.” She kissed Thorsten’s cheek as he lay sleeping in Morag’s arms, leaving the traces of her tears behind.

Finally, she managed to say, “Aye, he has his faither’s eyes. Arne will be proud of him.” Will he be reminded of me every time he looks at Thorsten’s hair?

“There’s nay time fer mourning,” she added, pulling herself up to her full height. “I must go. Help me with the bags, will ye, Morag, please?”

Morag nodded and handed Thorsten back to his mother. “I’ve had them prepare a horse fer ye, with enough provisions tae last ye a few days. There’s a bedroll and some blankets too, tae keep ye warm at night.” Morag easily hoisted the bags onto her shoulder.

“Thank ye,” Raven replied, cuddling Thorsten close as they finally left the room.

On quiet feet, they sped along the dimly-lit hallways and corridors of the sprawling house. Raven silently bid a last goodbye to the strange mixture of luxury and shabbiness she had become used to. The cries and grunts of business being transacted echoed from several of the rooms as they passed. While they walked, they continued their conversation in a whisper.

“Why d’ye nae just tell Arne about the men chasin’ ye? He could protect ye, could he nae? His braither is the laird hereabouts, the fabled Viking Lord,” Morag said as they hurried down the staircase to the lower levels.

“Aye, he would, but that’s exactly why I dinnae want tae tell him,” Raven explained, her fear and sorrow once more threatening to overwhelm her as she considered it for the hundredth time. “If I told Arne about all this, I ken he’d dae his best tae protect me me and Thorsten. But the man from me past who seeks me is very powerful and brutal. Tae cross him could cost Arne his life, and Thorsten’s as well. ’Tis safer fer them both if Arne daesnae ken the truth.”

“Aye, I suppose, if ye think ‘tis fer the best, lass,” Morag reluctantly agreed.

Eventually, they emerged from a rear door into a scrubby courtyard. There, with a feeling of tense relief, Raven saw a horse, already saddled, waiting for them. The actual physical evidence of their enforced flight brought more tears, but she would not let herself falter in her resolve and dashed them aside with the back of her hand.

“Ach, why is this so hard tae dae when I ken this is the best thing fer the baby and fer Arne?” she murmured as she handed the baby to Morag to hold while she mounted the horse. “I just have tae keep tellin’ mesel’ that they’ll both be so much better off without me in their lives.”

Morag handed the baby up to her, and Raven secured him to her chest with her shawl. Then she looked down at Morag and held out her hand. Morag took it, her hard brown eyes softening with tears as they squeezed each other’s fingers and shared a final affectionate look.

“Thank ye fer everythin’, Morag, and thank the girls fer me and say goodbye fer the both of us. Ye’ve given me a safe haven when I needed it most, and I’ll always be grateful tae ye.” She withdrew her hand from the madam’s and pulled some money from her pocket and held it out. “Here, take this, please. ’Tis little fer all ye’ve done fer me.”

Morag looked aghast for a moment and then shook her head vigorously and pushed Raven’s hand away. “Nay, lass, nay, I dinnae want it, and ye’ll need every penny of that fer yerselves. Put it back in yer pocket and keep it, hinny.”

Raven obeyed reluctantly, feeling she had taken so much more than she had given.

“Where are ye headin’?” the old woman asked.

“Well, first I must make sure that Thorsten is safe. After that, I have nay clue,” Raven replied. She gathered the reins, and the horse moved restlessly beneath her, as if eager to go.

“Goodbye, Morag. Take care of yersel’,” she said as she guided the horse from the courtyard, in the direction of the castle.

“Goodbye, and ye take care of yersel’, Maeve,” Morag called softly after her, waving her hand in farewell as tears began to fall from her eyes.

Raven turned slightly in the saddle and smiled warmly at the old madam through her tears. “Ye might as well use me real name now, Morag,” she said.

Morag gave a little hiccough of emotion, smiled back, and said, “Goodbye, Raven.”

The ride to Castle MacLeod through the darkness was under two miles from the village, and Raven knew the way by heart. The gathering of huge buildings that made up the castle loomed out of the dark against the sky like a colossus. The sight of it was both heartbreaking and comforting. She would be leaving little Thorsten there with his father, which was the heartbreaking part. The fact he would grow up safe and protected, part of the MacLeod clan, gave her a small modicum of cold comfort which enabled her to do what she knew she must.

All was quiet when she halted the horse a few hundred yards from the castle gates and carefully dismounted, trying not to wake Thorsten as she slid from the saddle. If he began crying, she might be discovered, and that was the last thing she wanted. Holding the baby to her chest, she untied the bag of his clothes from the saddle bag and took it with her as she crept silently to the gates themselves.

Forcing herself to go through the necessary motions, she propped the bag against the bottom of one of the mighty stone towers, then she reached inside her shawl and drew out a sealed letter. This she kissed and wedged atop of the clothes in the bag, making sure it would not blow away. She wondered how Arne would react when he saw his name inscribed on the front in her looping handwriting. He would know at once that it was from her.

“Oh, Lord help me tae dae this,” she murmured, her emotions threatening to overwhelm her resolve as she cuddled little Thorsten, peppering his head with gentle kisses, breathing in the lovely smell of him one last time. “Ye’ll be safe here, me darlin’. I dinnae want tae leave ye, but I have nae choice. Yer maither loves ye with all her heart, sweet lad, just ye remember that. Ye’re better off without me.”

With her vison blurred by fresh tears, she tidied the baby’s wrappings so he would not get cold and carefully laid him next to the bag with the letter. People would soon be about, and she was certain he would be found quickly. Not that she would leave without making sure he was safe first. “Goodbye, me wee angel. Forgive me fer leavin’ ye.”

With huge effort, she turned and made her way back to the horse hidden behind the trees, stifling her sobs lest she be heard. She waited there until a farmer arrived at the gates with a wagonload of vegetables. He could not help but notice the little bundle and the bag she had left there. She watched with bated breath and tears dimming her vision as the man climbed down from his seat and went to see what it was. He visibly started when he realized it was a baby and cast about him hurriedly, clearly looking for whoever had left a baby there. But of course, he could not see her hiding in the trees.

He bent over and tenderly picked the little bundle up, cradling it in his arms as an experienced father would do. A sob tore from Raven’s throat as the man held the baby beneath one arm with practiced ease and hammered on the gate with his other fist. A guard popped his head out from above and, seeing the wagon below, gave the signal to open the gates.

With a loud shrieking and clanking of chains, the mechanism concealed inside the twin towers ground into action. The enormous oaken gates slowly creaked open, and two guards came out. Raven sobbed harder, her hand over her mouth to stifle the giveaway sound of her distress as she observed the farmer showing the guards the bundle in his arms.

One of the guards stepped out and performed a cursory search of the area near the gates, clearly looking for whoever had left the child there, but in vain. The other engaged in a brief conversation with the farmer. During it, the guard picked up the bag she had left containing Thorsten’s clothes—and the letter addressed to his father.

A decision was made, and the farmer handed the baby over to the guard, who carried Thorsten and the bag with the letter inside the gates. The farmer got back up on his wagon and drove it through the gates into the castle courtyard. The second guard followed, casting another look about the area before he went in. Then, the grinding, metallic din of the chains began again.

As the gates closed, and her little son disappeared from her life for good, the storm of emotions Raven had held back for so long broke free. She doubled up with pain and guilt, holding her belly as great sobs wracked her slight body and hot tears ran down her cheeks, blinding her.

Arne will never forgive me fer this. And probably Thorsten willnae either. But ’tis better that they should hate me, fer it means they’ll be alive.

Chapter Two

1310, the Isle of Harris, the Western Scottish Highlands
Arne MacLeod stood next to his older brother Haldor on the headland above the village, pulling his coat around him against the freezing rain and the biting wind that tugged at their clothing like a fierce terrier.

Ignoring the rising storm that was heading in from the sea, and the rain coursing from his short blond hair and down his face and neck, he continued to stare out from their vantage point at the southernmost tip of Harris, out across the darkened, turbulent waters, towards the northern shore of the tiny island of North Uist. He knew it was there, but even with his sharp eyes, in such harsh conditions, it was impossible to make out the rocky coastline.

“There’s nae a single boat out there tonight,” Haldor observed just as it began to rain harder, as if a sluice gate in heaven had been opened.

“Anyone sailin’ out there in this must have a death wish,” Arne said with a sigh, his heart feeling as cold as the rain soaking him and trickling down inside his collar.

“Jaysus, ’tis gonnae be a bad one, I reckon,” Haldor said, the wind plastering his long fair hair to his face.

“Well, there’s nay point standin’ out here in this. We’re likely tae freeze our bollocks off,” Arne replied.

“Aye, but there’s still work needs doin’ in the mornin’. We havenae finished speakin’ tae everyone we need tae.”

“Dinnae fash yersel’, Braither. I have a room at the inn already. I’ll stay there tonight and speak with the villagers we couldnae see today on the morrow. I’ve naethin’ better tae dae,” Arne told Haldor grimly. “Ye can get on home if ye like, before the storm really takes hold.”

“Are ye sure about that?” Haldor asked, sounding doubtful and glancing at Arne sideways. “D’ye nae want tae get back tae the castle? Thorsten will be waitin’ fer ye.”

“Ach, he’ll be all right. He’s a strong wee laddie. He can dae without me fer the night, I reckon.”

“Aye, maybe he can, but he’s still young and misses his faither when he’s away,” Haldor said.

“Look, he’s managed tae grow intae the best wee son a man could wish fer—and all without a maither.” Arne frowned, wondering what had made him say it. He hardly ever alluded to Maeve at all, let alone mentioned her by name. It hurt too much. So, why now?

And he could tell by the way Haldor turned to look at him that his brother was surprised too. Haldor had no idea that every time Arne found himself near the sea, and the boats that plied their trade there, he could not help but wonder if it had been one of those boats which had taken Maeve from the island three years prior. He was sure she was definitely not on the island because during that time, he had searched for her everywhere.

But she had told him in the letter she left for him when she abandoned Thorsten not to search for her, that she was going far away where no one would ever find her. She had been as good as her word, for all Arne’s efforts had proved pointless. She did not want to be found. Nae by me, at any rate.

But Haldor did not pursue the subject, likely because he had had his head bitten off too many times in the past when trying to broach the thorny subject. Perhaps because he wanted to get home before the storm hit.

Instead, he said, “Well, if ye’re sure, I’ll leave ye then and get back tae the castle,” and clapped Arne on the back before going to mount his horse, which was tethered to a wind-bent tree with Arne’s nearby.

“Aye, I’ll be as quick as I can and report back tae ye,” Arne said, following him and taking the reins of his own horse, intending to ride the mile or so back to the inn.

“All right. I’ll see ye back at home when ye’re done,” Haldor said over his shoulder as he turned his beast north and rode away, giving a last salute.

“Aye, safe journey, Braither,” Arne called after him, watching him disappear into the rain-filled darkness.

Once he was alone, Arne turned his back on the wild, wind-whipped sea and walked the horse slowly away from the sound of crashing waves, towards the lights of the tavern that were just visible through the driving rain in the distance.

He was halfway there, intent on a pint or three of strong ale to take the chill from his bones and help him sleep, when a terrible grinding sound fit to wake the dead rent the air. It stopped him in his tracks, for it sounded as though the heavens above were being torn asunder. The horse whinnied and snorted, pulling against the reins, spooked. Arne began stroking its nose and spoke comfortingly to it to quiet it.

He squinted through the rain at the sky, searching for a celestial source of the din. But there was nothing above he could make out. Then, suddenly, out of the murk came the distant shrieking and groaning sound of timber being violently pulled apart, followed by shrill screams of terror that ripped through the night.

A shipwreck! But who would be mad enough tae sail on a night like this?

The horse whinnied, bucking in panic. Arne gripped the reins to bring the frightened beast under control and swung himself into the rain-soaked saddle. He kicked the horse’s flanks and sped towards the village and the nearby shoreline, where the dreadful sounds of a boat being shattered to pieces on the rocks grew louder, filling the darkness.

Soon he met others who were running down to the beach, and he hailed a passing youth. “Hey, lad, will ye take me horse back tae the stables at the inn?” he shouted to him, slipping from the saddle.

“Aye, Sir,” the drenched youth replied, taking the reins Arne handed to him along with a few coins.

“Thanks, that’s somethin’ fer yer trouble,” Arne said above the racket of the storm and the bone-chilling sounds coming from the shore. The lad hurried away with the frighted horse, while Arne ran the short distance down to the gravelly beach with the other villagers and stood panting, casting about in the turbulent semi-darkness to see what was happening and who needed help.

A few yards distant, he vaguely made out two older men helping another from the water, dragging him between them away from the lashing waves. The man appeared to be unconscious. He could be dead for all Arne knew, but he ran towards them, nevertheless.

“D’ye need help?” he shouted above the terrible crashing of the waves and the groans of the disintegrating vessel, which he could vaguely make out being tossed like a broken toy on the raging tide.

The rescuers laid the unconscious man on the sand and peered at Arne through the gloom while dashing water from their eyes. “He’s all right, but there are more still in the water,” one of them shouted, gesturing with his arm at the waterlogged man at his feet. “This one’s the captain of the birlinn that’s breakin’ up. He sails these waters all the time.”

“But why is he sailin’ at night in a storm like this? That’s pure madness!” Arne exclaimed, going closer to help them drag the captain farther away from the rushing waters.

“Aye, but his business is better carried out under cover of darkness, if ye get me meanin’. He deals in black market goods, givin’ fugitives and the like passage tae the mainland,” one of the rescuers explained as they laid the captain on safer ground. “He needs the darkness tae play his trade.”

“Well, it’s nae done him nor them any good this foul night,” Arne responded, brushing sand from his hands and noticing that more people were arriving. Some carried lighted torches, casting a hellish light on the proceedings. Others were racing down the beach and splashing into the water, seeking other survivors. “I cannae see many of the passengers makin’ it through this,” he shouted to the two men, following behind as they raced back down the beach into the foaming sea.

Anxious to save as many of the poor souls as possible, he too waded out into the waves fully clothed, still in his boots, looking to aid more of the unfortunate ship-wrecked passengers being tossed up on the shore. Suddenly, he spotted something floating nearby, something white. A woman! He threw himself into the sea and swam as fast as he could towards her, against the frenzied, dragging tide, swallowing mouthfuls of the salt water as the tossing waves broke over him.

He finally reached her and took her limp body in his arms, brushing the lengths of her floating dark hair from his mouth as he turned on his back and towed her in until he could feel the bottom beneath his feet once more.

Then, he carried through the surging waves up onto the sand and gently laid her down near the growing line of bodies. The sopping mass of her hair was plastered her face, hiding her features, but he cared naught for that, wanting only to know if she was still alive.

He felt a spark of hope to see her chest moving. She was breathing shallowly, but he knew he had to act fast, for that could change at any moment. Some of the villagers came to aid him, holding their lighted torches high, others helping as he turned her on her side and thumped her back, to get rid of the water in her lungs.

For some reason he could not fathom, he felt very protective of her, whoever she was, and he was terrified she would die in his arms. When she finally started coughing violently, water running from her mouth, her entire body shaking, Arne slid an arm under her back to hold her up as she coughed and heaved.

To help her get some air, he pushed back the veil of dark hair obscuring her face, and his hand froze in midair as he stared down at the pale, almost blueish features revealed to him. As he took them in, the breath left his body in a rush, and his head went dizzy.

The face was as familiar to him as his own, as Thorsten’s, for it belonged to the woman who had walked out on him and their son three years before. It was none other than the boy’s mother. The only woman he had ever loved. The one who had ruined him forever.

Maeve!